im at home in wichita now, but maybe i should have stayed in denver. christmas with family is overrated i think...or at least its overrated when u try to be with my family. y is that every year i look forward to the holidays, but when it gets here, i get a big reality check?

i had my photo shoot with calvin...turned out much better than i expected. lol probably because hes gay so it all works out. nothing special has really happened since my last entry. finals are done thank god. hopefully i did well in all my classes. the roommate situation = bleh. dont know if i will be moving out. grrr. im coming back on the 30th. gonna be spending the extra week looking for a job, plus ham said hes gonna teach me how to snowboard while everyone gone im happy. lol i cant wait.

last night was interesting tho. sarah szots was having a party in her room last night and there was a guy that was soo drunk. his name was bryan...lets just say that ive never had a guy be soo...forward with me? lol. how do u tell a guy to back off without being mean? oi...it got to the point where the girls were rescuing me from this dude.

gotta go....

things have been sooooo shitty with everything...including roommates lately (im moving out....again) that last night was an awesome break from all of it. chris and i went to see national treasure last night. afterwards i got some homemade lasagna  yummy in my tummy. we went up to lookout mountain and brought sleeping bags with us....chris and i spent two hours on the snow covered rocks just talking (we were careful about not falling) it was actually pretty warm....it was kinda nice just sitting there and talking....just wish we could see the stupid stars over denver....altho we did see a ton of cops weaving their way around. we didnt leave until 2:30 this morning and with the drive i didnt fall into bed until 4...oi

i just agreed to pose for my gay friend who is a photography major....i dont know what came over me. he has a final project to do and wants to focus on the human body, so a bunch of girls are gonna model for him (separately  of course)....not nude ones....just kinda risque lol...o well...im gonna be covered and i can stop whenever i want :o) so well see what happens. kinda funny when i have hangups about nudity but o well....its art i guess...ive seen some awesome work done so its cool

quick update on whats happened since my last entry...i went home on nov 5 to surprise yen for her bday party. since then, ive been really busy with homework that i havent really been social. making me crazy lately, but that doesnt mean i havent had my fair share of drama. shitty family stuff is going on, my roommate is on a fucking power trip so im moving out at christmas, and stuff (shit?) with shane...god i have no clue as to what the hell is going on with me and guys....

alright, must go back to homework now...only two more weeks of class, then three weeks break (ill be flying home and staying until the 30th) then more class whoa hoo hehe. ill be spending that extra week, finding a job, moving into another apartment, and hopefully snowboarding

Happy Birthday to Em Yen!  my little sister is now 17 years old....and happy anniversary! haha

i forgot to mention in my last entry that i dyed my hair back to all black just in time for halloween...only its really really black, almost unnatural. lol, course all the art kids here like it cuz its different. i feel like im wearing a wig sometimes also, carly, marin, michelle and i got a hold of a henna tattoo kit and went crazy with it. i now have an awesome indian/hindu whatever type design done on my hands and flowers and vines on my neck area. looks awesome. a couple weeks ago i spent 4 hours in a tattoo parlor with jules and amanda. amanda wanted some support while she had her $200 tattoo done. ouch. course, when i told my mom that i was at a tattoo parlor, she just calmly said that shes shipping me back home. haha...apparently my mom doesnt know me that well. then again, she asked me if i was pregnant one day when i told her that i was snacking way more than what was healthy. oi

you know, i just reread the entry....its pretty random lol, but then, jessica, and katrina thinks i have ADD cuz they just crack up whenever i talk...theyre not the first people to think that cuz jules and amanda think i have ADD too. maybe i do....the entry certainly sounds like it. i like to think of it as my mind going in 5 different directions all at once but my mouth can only communicate one thought at a time. so...if i want to say everything that im thinking, it may or may not be related to each other

happy halloween! its SNOWING! first snow of the year...in denver neways lol. wow, and it was pretty nice this morning too...thats denver for ya i guess. haha, just in time for the little trick-or-treaters....and the big ones too

heres a quickie update.things are finally getting back to normal with my roommate. it only took two weeks. last week scott, griff, and eric thought it would be funny to steal my toilet seat....i know. wtf... i was pissed since i had to write an ethics paper (which is pointless since im at an art school). the boys wouldnt give it back to me until later. then at 3 in the morning, an hour after i went to bed, they called my cell 8 times in half an hour. katie of course got pissed at me, esp since her bf was spending the night. oi...i listened to the messages in the norming, took me 20 minutes to listen to all of them. aie. on friday, i went to six flags and the two haunted houses with jules and amanda. it was great fun yesterday was the halloween party at the manor...damn i need to get to a club. my legs are soooo sore from dancing. it was awesome. hehe, marin, michelle, carly, and brie were looking out for me during the party when a guy friend told me hes had a crush on me. that party was so awesome...gotta do it again.

grrrrr. wtf. i hate drama, especially when its over such a petty little thing. this morning, i woke up and took a shower before class. after i got out, my roommate katie completely bitches me out for being inconsiderate since i wasnt finished with my shower when she woke up at 6am. geez, i set her back 10 minutes and she still had another 50 minutes to get ready before driving to class. i had to take the bus which left like 30 minutes before she did....gawd, i only took like 20 minutes to get ready for class.  neways, this is the first time she tells me off like this and i was basically in shock, just because i thought everything was fine. no warning. gawd. i hate it when ppl are mad at me, and apparently shes being pretty vocal about it, cuz ppl are coming up to me and asking what the hell i did this morning to piss off katie. so katie and i are not speaking as usual, and the other two roommates...i dont know. i talked to them when i came back, and they didnt say nething, just ignore me.... grrr. so i guess im not talking to ne of my roommates...wtf. i haaate confrontations, and i didnt even do nething wrong!

on another note, ive been hanging out with scott, jules, griff, and eric a bunch lately. probably cuz they accept me for who i am even tho the guys do like to tease me about it. ham (his nickname) is a friend of scott and jules who is moving up here from florida to go to school here at the beginning of the year. in the meantime hes staying with us. hes pretty cool, haha, pretty funny guy when u get to know him, but everyone get the wrong first impression of him since his arms are basically tattooed like long sleeves  there was some drama that went on between him and griff about me i guess but now everythings cool. shrug....it went over my head lol.

next week, my second job at starbucks starts (finally). for the first week (and only the first week hopefully) i work four mornings from 5:30 am to 11 am. then i have class from 12:30 to 4:30, then fossil at 5 a couple times a week....or homework. basically, i work in the mornings when i dont have class at 7am or church....im doomed....but i need the money lol. well see how fast it takes for me to burn out.

i cant wait for the season to start here...gonna get snowboard seasons pass (which is why i need the money). oi...boots and bindings are gonna be a biotch to pay off.....hmm, maybe i can get the parents to pay for those as a christmas present lol. ham is gonna loan me the rest of the equipment so ill be good to go...hopefully lol. my friends go snowboarding all the time...i guess they do the really extreme stuff with tricks and jumps....so theyre gonna teach me haha. itll be awesome.